*Trigger Warning*
Over a year ago my partner and I made the hardest decision we have ever had to make. We accidently fell pregnant and decided then we, for number of reasons financially, family dynamics, health, our ages etc that a child together was simply not what we wanted. We decided on a termination and found out that I had a blighted ovum. The whole decision making and process messed me up, and I have since been on an emotional roller coaster. 12 months on and whilst I still have some mixed emotions about it I 95% don't regret it, in fact it feels awful to say it but I am slightly empowered by it. It has empowered me in the fact that I did have other choices and in everyday life I have had little things that have confirmed that in fact I made the Best decision for ME!! I don't know how else to explain it. I feel horrible for feeling this way. I know that this may upset some people, I just had to get it off my chest as it is making me feel guilty for feeling empowered by it, if that makes sense. I am sorry if I have offended anyone.
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You made the best choice for you - that is empowering! You don't need to feel guilty for it.
Some people won't understand your choice or your feelings but that doesn't matter because they don't matter to you. They don't pay your bills or raise your kids or face any of the consequences of your choices.
I celebrate with you!!
Congratulations on finding peace with your choice!
It took me a really long time to be at peace with my choice, but after a couple of years i was happy with the choice i made.
Termination is hard, but please don’t feel bad for being happy.
Sending love
Then you definitely made the right choice. Ive been in the same predicament and thought id feel differently after the termination but i didnt. Sending u warm hugs
Definitely not wrong, I’ve been in your shoes, no regrets xxx