I'm 25 it's not that old but I feel like I'm getting left behind in life.
I was the first of my friends to move in with my partner the first of my friends to have a baby and I almost bought a house. I used my deposit on moving over seas with mg now ex. Biggest mistake I ever made. I would be set now if I bought the house i was going to.
My ex was an abuser he changed when we came back to Australia. I left when I was pregnant. He isn't in my daughters life.
So now here I am at 25 back at home with my mum and sisters I don't work I'm on centerlink. I feel like a loser compared to all my friends. My daughter is going to behavioral classes, we are attending parenting course and my daughter is seeing OTs and a pediatrician. i also see a counselor once a week. Life is busy. All I want is a job and my old carrier back now my daughters almost 3 and a half but how can I work with all the appointments and classes. And I am out looking but no one contacts me further even after interviews it's so depressing.
My best friend of 15 years got married almost 2 years ago now. My kindergarten friend got married a few weeks ago along with jist buying a house. My friend from high school who was with me when I had my daughter just had a baby and is getting married at the end of the year and then trying for another. My other friend I had in my birth is now married with a 2 year old and owns her house and a new business. And my friend I meet in labor now has 2 kids and bought a house last week
Then there is me. Single with 2 failed relationships. Living with my mum as I can't afford to live out of home right now jobless.
I know I should be looking at the positives but I just can't Al my friends are so set up and stable. I'm so happy for them I really am I cried when they got married and engaged. But I can't help but feel a little jealous.
Every guy I go on a date with just wants to bang and go. No one seems fo want to settle these days. I'm so out of the dating scene but from what I have seen it's weird. Go to a nice dinner movie walk what ever it is then then ask you back to theirs have sex and that's it.. I've only given in twice over the year when they ask now I say no and still never hear anything.
I'm trying to save every dollar I can while I'm back home but it's only $60 a week but to me that's better than nothing.
Do you think life can get better. I want another child so bad. I hate my daughter growing up alone with no siblings or cousins even. I would of been lost if I didn't have my cousins and siblings. I have ALOT.
How can life go from almost being set to back down the bottom only worst single mum and scard of what lies ahead.