I am in my mid 30's, a wife and mum of 2 beautiful kids. I have always been a 'happy' person. I am a worrier but I've always been upbeat. My worry is I've changed. I lost someone close to me a few months ago and i feel like my whole outlook on life has changed. Its really worrying me. When i think about it it started before the loss. I don't feel like self harming or sitting in a corner all day crying, it's just as if most of the time I feel nothing. The only time I really feel happy is sometimes when I'm around my kids..giving or receiving a hug/kiss. I love my husband dearly, but i don't feel happy anymore. I have become a negative and sad person and it frightens me. My youngest is having his 4th birthday this week and I feel like the best present i can give him is to go see a doctor. I can see my negativity and sadness rub off on my 2 beautiful little people. I guess I'm not asking anything..i just needed to get it off my chest. I don't like what i have become but i don't know how to deal with it. Maybe someone else has gone through the same. Advice would be helpful.
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I'm sorry for your loss. Definitely take the time to mourn if that is what you need.
Your post screams depression, I think you are already aware but haven't physically written the words. The best advice is to seek out a GP and find a psychologist/psychiatrist who can help you. Get everything off of your chest and if need be, jump on some anti-depressants.
In the meantime, try drinking cups of hot lemon water. I found they helped me HEAPS when depressed.
I am always an upbeat positive person too majority of the time but I've always found when I'm down I am REALLY down. No in between for me. Either SUPER happy positive or really down and depressed.
Always remember that it's not possible to always be happy and positive and even the strongest people have weak moments.
Be gentle to yourself, you're grieving!!!!!!!!! And go see your doctor.
I don't have any advice but am going through the same thing at the moment! Ive lost my mojo for life, have a beautiful family and husband but find myself going through the daily grind without much emotion!
So much going on at the moment I think the only way I can keep everything together is not feel! I'm hoping when everything settles I can relax a little and enjoy the little things again!
Hugs to you, hope it's just a crappy phase and you find your zest for life again xx