I'm not doing well and I know it. I have PTSD, my anxiety is making me feel crazy and I have been sobbing all week. I have complex shit going on in my life I can't escape, I also have no control of it so I don't think I'll ever be able to properly recover. The undiagnosed bulimia I've been battling for 12 years has really reared it's ugly head and I'm too ashamed to tell anyone about it. I went to the doctor yesterday about the PTSD getting worse and I've been referred to a psychiatrist but I haven't been given an appointment yet.
The doctor gave me the mental health triage numbers for the closest hospitals if I need to go before our next appointment. My question is, will my kids be ok? I usually hold it together, for my kids and my partner. The guilt that my kids are seeing me in this state is eating me alive. I'm failing them.
I'm having a mental breakdown
I'm having a mental breakdown
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Mental Health, Anxiety & Depression, Parenthood Guilt
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I am feeling you because I’m going through something similar at the moment. I am suffering terrible depression following the death of my sister. My kids have seen the worst of me. I have to go into hospital tomorrow for a while. My kids are upset about it but I really need to sort myself out. I am feeling guilty too and I feel like a terrible mother. But continuing on as I am is not an option. My kids are going to be ok. And I hope on the other side of this I will be a happier person and a better mother.
We are human and life happens and it can be difficult. I hope you too can get through this time xx
Theyll be better when youre taking care of yourself. Its much better than feeling t he duty to be a mum and stay home while going through this. No guilt, no holding on, just knowing when to admit its time and get yourself the help.
When you say complex shit you can never recover from, I dont know what it is however I have found that with time and options and change, things can change and you see things differently.