My anxiety/depression is at the worst it's ever been. Ive spoken to my gp and have an appointment booked for a psychologist in just under a month. But I'm struggling right now. I'm a single mum, I work casually and live by myself. I'm avoiding work by not picking up shifts because I just can't function. I barely interact with my child and feel like I'm barely getting through each day. Some days I feel like I would be better off not being here. I hate where I live even though I have just moved here but I want to be closer to people I know but can't move till the end of the year. I'm literally in tears for probably 50% of the day everyday. I'm so scared I've never felt this low before especially not with a child relying on me for everything. I would never hurt my child and don't want to be away from them. I just want to be happy and I try every day to wake up and function but everyday is the exact same I wake up with this feeling in my stomach that just feels like something is going to happen. I'm sorry if this doesn't make sense and not exactly sure what the point of it is. I just need to get it out before it keeps building and building.
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I think you’ve written in a few times, lately.
You’ve been through a lot of changes and it’s certainly going to be an adjustment. You need to know, how you are feeling isn’t forever. You will start to feel better.
While you are waiting for your appointment contact beyondblue. They have loads of resources and can provide services while you wait for your appointment.
Don’t pressure yourself to work more. Your normal shifts are enough.,
Thank you, yeah I have posted a few times it's the only outlet I have really, as I don't have many friends. Thank you I will get in contact with them and see if they can help me
I have been through both sides of this, I have had mental health issues and I am also grieving the loss of someone due to suicide. Mental health is so important its probably my number 1 priority in everyone I care about. Because once it's too late it's too late so let's look at what we can do to not let too late happen.
Break it down for now, just gotta get through the next hour, the next shift, the next bedtime. The fact that it all repeats tomorrow is so so so hard I know that - but dont look at a month from now or even a week because I know that's scary and feels like a lifetime. Just get through today. I know its cliche, I'd rather not say things will get better but I prefer to remind myself that what I'm going through at any point is not permanent.
It wont be permanent. I promise. Therapy is ridiculously helpful, it changed my life you just gotta hang in there for now.
I wish there was something I could do to help you. What state are you in?
Hang in there ❤
Thank you for your reply, it was super helpful. At the moment I'm just using the get through each day thing but feel like there is nothing to look forward to at the end.
I'm in Victoria