Unsure what to do.

Anonymous

Unsure what to do.

Hey mums, ladies, friends etc.

I don't know where to start really. I feel such a deep sadness in my heart and my brain is exhausted. I have worked in community services for 11 years, working directly with loved ones, caring for them through the beginning, middle and end of life stages. I've been assaulted and often unsupported by my workplaces. I seperated from a man who did not value me 2.5 years ago. Since then I've continued to work, study and parent our child within the 50/50 care arrangements we have. I'm in the middle of a divorce and property settlement. I've dated and been hurt terribly by men who used my past trauma against me.

Last year it all got too much and I ended up being diagnosed with compassion fatigue and burnout. I was seeing a psycologist during this time but I feel like I'm slipping back into the depths of darkness.

This year I entered into a relationship with a man who is kind, understanding, supportive and patient. My life in essence is fantastic yet I can't shake this sadness, hurt and extreme feeling of fatigue. I have regular anxiety attacks and have recently been having panic attacks. I feel ashamed and dramatic for feeling this way when everything else is so good.

I have an appointment with my psycologist again in October when she's available. I guess I just want some kind words, some support or to know I'm not alone.

Thank you for taking the time to read this far.

Posted in:  Mental Health, Anxiety & Depression

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Anonymous

Hi, I work in the community and when you are working in a highly emotional environment, it can be very tough. It sounds like you need to shift completely from your line of work for a while, if not permanently. Take care of yourself first and foremost. It probably is very scary to think about moving from your line of work, the work that you have done for the last 11 years but your body and your mind is screaming to tell you to rest. Best of luck.

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Anonymous

Have you seen a doctor about your symptoms including the fatigue? Could be more going on. If you have been checked out completely, try seeing a psychic. Nothing can hurt from seeing one.

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