Does anyone know where I can start looking for resources that will improve my public speaking or, at the very least, help me be less awkward?
I'm a teacher and talk all day to students without a second thought. The minute I need to talk to an adult I don't know, or don't know well, I turn into a bumbling fool... saying things I don't mean, forgetting simple words, making inappropriate jokes, filling in silence with stupidity or leaving awkward silences, etc. I walk away from many conversations shaking my head, thinking "why would you say that?". I cannot, for the life of me, attend job interviews for the fear of needing to speak in front of people (literally cried during an interview last year). I don't suffer from general anxiety just this crippling embarrassment after being so socially awkward. Please send help 🤦♀️