Mums, I am in serious need of help. Professional help, community help, I dont know but I need it. I am constantly dropping my son off to school late. Some mornings I'm 30 minutes late. I was approached by a teacher this morning who asked me why my son was late again this morning and I said it was my fault that I'd overslept. Me oversleeping is such a horrendous issue. I've set 5 alarms all from 6am to 7am and most mornings I am in such deep sleep that I cannot hear them. I suffer from a variety of physical and mental crap it's not funny. Over the weekend I had another flare up of gastritis (your stomach becomes inflamed and it feels like someone has your stomach in a vise and is twisting it and stabbing it at the same time) and that went on for 2 days. Last night I was awoken by my 2 dogs going absolutely bonkers and I was too frightened to go back to sleep (I recently had a break in were stuff was stolen from my yard) and I heard knocking on my house twice at 3am.
My house looks like a bomb has hit it and I feel utterly incapable of cleaning it up. My body and mind are constantly so exhausted that by the time I get back home from drop offs I can feel this heavy blanket coming over my mind and body and I sometimes just crawl back into bed because I cant move from exhaustion. It's like I have 50kg weights just hanging off me everywhere and my mind just gets hazy and tired.
I've gone to the doctors. Ive had the blood tests. Ive had the check ups and everything. My last round of bloods was fine and I asked the doctor "well what's going on with me then? Why am I like this?" He tapped his head and said it's all in your mind... so no help there.
Overall my life is a catastrophic fkn mess and i am sick to death of my son having to deal with the fact that i dont have my shit together. He deserves so much better. He deserves a mum who has energy to do this basic day to day crap! The motivation and the drive to just do what needs to be done!
I dont know what's going on with my body, mind or sleep but it's all gone to shit and i need help. I need to rearrange my life somehow and i need to do it fast. The school is now asking more and more questions about our tardiness and i just dont have the excuses left. Please someone point me in the direction of someone who can help me!