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By fellow Imperfect Mum: Marie Kenyon My beautiful husband, Russ, tragically lost his life on June 4th, 2014. He was my world, my very best friend. I am a better person for having had him in my life, even if it was for only the shortest time. Funny, when we married only 6 weeks prior to his passing, (together 6 years) I thought to myself, "Wow, 6 years, it feels like a lifetime." But now that he'...
My heart skipped a beat. My throat contracted. The fluid left my mouth, and all I could taste was metal. Why? – I hear you say. I realised it was nearing the end of July, we were heading into August. August brings with it a lot of pain. – For me. It’s a month I would rather skip. That way I don’t have to feel the pain. The pain knowing that I will never celebrate your birthday with you . Knowing...
Today I had the pleasure of meeting a beautiful human. I must share my experience with you. As most of you know my family own an Educational business and that is where I work. Today a man was waiting to pay at the counter, I turned to see him waiting and I apologised profusely. I felt both embarrassed and unprofessional as I was engaging in a conversation with another staff member whilst he...
Dearest Nanny, who we miss so much... As we sit remembering you, Grandad shares the moment he set his eyes on you, he was sitting on the sidelines at a ballroom watching you, you were dancing so beautifully, so gracefully – you took his breath away . Grandad leaned over close to his mates ear and says “I’ll marry that girl” his mate gave him a quizzical look and says ‘how do you know that? You...
It’s been an emotional rollercoaster of a week for me – coming to a real climax today… Last weekend, I was blessed to be in Melbourne for a book release. It was my first time flying to Melbourne and the time spent with family was precious. The book that was released is titled ‘Heartbreakingly Beautiful’ which is the perfect description! It is ’52 week devotional journey of hope, inspired by the...
The image above is quite a confronting image for me as it looks exactly like my son’s feet. This is not a photo of him, I have lots of photo’s, I do wish I had one like this though. Don’t say NOTHING - Please don’t pretend it has happened and say nothing.. Just say - ”I’m sorry for your loss” or ”I’m here if you” Don’t say - ”It’s better that way” or “It’s natures way” or refer to the baby as an...
My friend has lost her husband, suddenly, unexpectedly. They were moving back home (Cairns) to be with his Mother as she was not coping with the death of her husband just 6 weeks before. They wanted to be here to support her and be there for her. They spent their last night together at their going away party laughing and having fun. The next morning she tried to wake him and he never woke.. That...
From the moment our kids were born we have spoken about their big brother in heaven. It was very important to my husband and I that Titan’s memory lived on and that Maya and Tex knew as much as they possibly could about their big brother. At various ages we covered his death and funeral and tried the best we could to answer question they may have. We were driving along the other day and Maya...
My legs are walking, my lipstick is on, things are whirling by, the phone is ringing, I am driving, and I feel you coming... I feel you whirling up from deep inside... I want to stop you. I can’t bear to have you bubble up… I can barely breathe…My jaw is sore from being clenched from trying to keep you inside.... ” Grief, I can’t handle you anymore... tomorrow it will have been 7 years” Can I...
Coming home after Titan’s funeral to an empty house, an empty heart and empty arms was one of the worst days of my life. “How will I live my life without my baby?” I would often stand in his nursery and just stare at the empty cot and imagine him lying there. He was meant to be in my arms. I was meant to be cradling him. Yet he was somewhere else and I didn’t know where. I remember comments like...