Lost

Anonymous

Lost

Hello lovely people. So my head is in a big mess its ready to explode.
I have been with my husband for 15years i was young when we got together and have always felt i just live in his shadow. I suffer depression and don't have many friends i find it very difficult to talk to people, the fear of being judge towers over me all the time i dont feel worthy enough for any good things.
Our life has always been what my husband likes doing, if he doesn't like it we don't do it. This man loves me lots i know that and i love him dearly, but since moving 15 hours away from family witch im very close with my depression has took a down fall im always sad not wanting to be here, iv been to the doctor more times than I can count since living here for just over 2 years.

Im lost he knows how i feel, he admitted things were a lot better with us when we were back at our home town but he wont even consider moving back.
Iv had enough and told him im going back without him with our kids. He is very cranky and as usual blaming me for everything.
Iv tried mothers groups up here, looking 4 work made a couple of friends but im just not happy. Going to a councilor scares the absolute shit out of me i get bad anxiety about.
We both love each other and i want nothing more than to stay together but i cant stand living here anymore, i don't even know what im asking just so lost and confused.

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Anonymous

It's time to go. I don't know what his interpretation of love is, but I don't see that as love I see that as it's my way or the highway. Love is a two way street where he wants you to be happy too. Where he encourages you to have things for you. Love is not all giving and no getting. Love isn't saying I love you, it's the things you do for each other.

Time to move on go your separate ways. He is interested in his own interests only and that can never last.

When you get home please try and get to a psychologist. I know it's scary, my first time I had a panic attack, but things can get so very much better and that panic attack was worth it.

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