Hey girls, Im writing because Im simply miserable and its gotten so bad I dont want the next day to come because it's just going to be another struggle (I dont want to die I just cant bare the thought of another day in misery).
My husbands In the army, we have a 4 year old and Ive given up all my passions and dreams to fit into our life style. And Im going to still be loosing them for the next 3 years due to being posted to a new area in the new year. I have no friends, my husband gets posted away and is going to be away alot the next 6 months, I have no family near me and the closest thing I have to a best friend is our dog.
Im so thankful I have our 4 year old, although how I am at the moment Im not agood example for them to follow.
Army life really isnt that bad but it is difficult. It doesn't help when you have suffered from depression and anxiety and no support to make you feel important. My husband says "he understands" but doesnt do anything to help. Its not his fault either.
In short I just want to feel alive again. Not like the miserable stranger. (My passion and hobby is a sport and I can't continue that sport here unfortunately.)
I think all I want right now is 1 a friend, 2 a hug and 3 some activity that makes me feel great again.
Anyone whos experienced these issues please share your story so I truely know Ill get through this and everything will be ok.
And yes I knew what I was in for when I married an army guy BUT that doesnt make times like these any easier.
(Please no negativity I cant handle it right now.)
Miserable army wife
Miserable army wife
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Where are you headed? And as an aside, maybe try get a federal government job. Lots of mum's as colleagues and you could transfer your job with each army transfer....
I really feel for you, loneliness is a terrible feeling. Personally I think that having something purposeful to do is so important, whatever that is will depend on the person. Do you work? You said you can't do your sport, is there another activity you can throw yourself into? When primary school comes along that will give you more time to focus on yourself. It isn't selfish to look after yourself sometimes.
I can 110% relate to you. I am in exactly the same position. Army wife of 8 years and 5 postings, two young children and husband has an incredibly demanding job. I find it lonely and hard moving and having to make new friends. It’s a hard concept giving up everything and trying to have something for yourself too. Even after this long I still struggle with it!
I'm so sorry you are feeling lost. Could you organise a Mum's group where you could meet up with other "Army Mummies" who are in a similar situation as you? Or, you said sport was your thing, maybe you could put together like a gymbaroo for other kids and Mums like yourself. Hugs to you Mama.