I have recently had a stillborn at 21 weeks and 4 days. A beautiful baby girl. I don't know how I should be feeling or coping. I just feel numb, lost and confused. I cry when alone or someone new has found out through a family member. I feel like the worst human being ever and like I don't deserve children at all. I'm thinking I might be in denial. My daughter still thinks I'm pregnant even though she met her sister. The hospital were and have been nothing but supportive and always there when needed. But I just want to know how I'm really suppose to feel :'( I can't keep going on but have to for my daughter. My milk has come in :'( I have just lost the Phantom kicks... I spent time with her and let everyone meet her. She was perfect in every way. I'm scared I may have post natal depression and my mind is ignoring it
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I'm sorry. I'm so so so sorry that you are going through this. There is no right or wrong way to feel. There simply isn't. You are just at the start of the grieving process and you just have to take it an hour at a time. That's it. Please get some counselling for yourself and your family. Please be kind to yourself and reach out to people who love you xx
I'm sorry you are going through this. I can't even imagine.
I'm not sure there is a 'right' way to feel in any situation. It sure sounds like you could do with someone to talk to though. I'd be making an appointment with my GP for a mental health care plan assessment and referrals.
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Oh sweet heart I'm so sorry for your loss !
Grief is such a personal thing . There is no real rules to how you 'should' be feeling !
Your are grieving and that will
Come in Ebs and
Flows and will
Look different each day .
Sometimes numbness is a coping
Mechanism as u have another daughter and there are things you need to do . It's your body
And minds way of surviving and
It's OK!
Allow yourself a lot of grace and your husband too . Talk about it all you need to or don't just now ... connect with the supports available to you and don't be afraid to accept help when it's offered !!!!